Being a creative is one hell of a ride. It really is exciting – creating new things is always this immensely fulfilling experience and, truth be told, the prospect of new, different jobs every time is kind of thrilling.
But it’s a rough ride, too. And I’ve said this before – for weeks on end now, I wake up with absolutely no motivation and no inspiration to create said new things. And when people ask me what’s wrong, my answer’s always: I’m tired.
I’m tired of working for things, for people and towards goals, and seemingly never receiving anything back – at least not anything that is proportional in reward to the amount of effort and energy that I would have put into it, in the first place.
A few days ago, my best friend linked me to this article – it’s called Read this when you’re tired of everything. And I was astounded at the accuracy with which it described pretty much exactly what I’m going through right now.
The world that we live in is an exhausting place to be. It is wearing. It is thankless. It is endlessly trying and scarcely rewarding. You’re tired simply because you live in it. You’re tired of loving too much, caring too much, giving too much to a world that never gives anything back.
At a stage where all I seem to be doing is working towards targets that continuously outrun me, these words ring truer than true.
I know it might seem that this is all I ever really talk about. Maybe it is. In reality, it is all I ever think about these days. Can I really do this for the rest of my life? If all I’m ever going to feel is that I’m not good enough, that I can’t do any more but I’m still not doing enough, then maybe there’s no point in even trying. I’m sure these words resonate with a good few.
But then, something like this comes along and it reminds you of something indispensable: We’re all more resilient than we think.
And it’s true. At the end of the day, I surprise myself with the work I do, the goals I manage to reach, the experiences I attain, and the strength that I show in the face of adversity and other challenges. I’m sure every other creative – and every other human being – goes through this same notion.
Some parts of life happen quietly. They happen slowly. They happen because of the small, careful choices that we make everyday, that turn us into better versions of ourselves.
When you’re tired, go slowly. Go quietly. Go timidly. But do not stop. You are tired for all the right reasons. You are tired because you’re growing. And someday that growth will give way to the exact rejuvenation that you need.